I AM So Embarassed...

Because it has been almost a month since I have updated my blog! I have become one of those blog owners who doesnt update frequently. Shame on me!! But I do have an excuse! On March 20 I lost my Grandma. It was so very hard because as you all know on February 16 I lost my other Grandma. I was very very close to both my Grandmas and to lose them both in a months time was like shock to my heart. I will miss them both every day for as long as I walk this earth, because when I am no longer here I will be with them dancing in Heaven!
On Easter Sunday the kids and I packed up and moved! We packed our belongings and left Fairfield. It was the hardest thing I have ever done, walking away from my marriage, but I know that the life I am providing for my children here is much better (not to mention less stressfull) than the life we lived there. Of course change is always hard and I do miss him very much but ya know what they say about bad habits? They are hard to break.

So now onto my weightloss update!!!
I have lost close to 50lbs at this point. I feel wonderful. I am still drug free (just taking those daily vitamins and the pepcid). My blood sugars have been amazing. I test my blood every morning and my fasting sugars are usually 89 every morning! This is great because before surgery my fastings were between 145 and 165 every morning! My blood pressure is staying low around 110/70 which again is awsome because I was on several BP pills and my BP was 145/90 typically! So this is wonderful.
My diet. I still struggle with wanting those things that are bad for me, I think it will always be a struggle for me, but now I know how to say no. I have maintained the 5grams of sugar or less rule. I have not tried any sweets or soda, you all know how big of a baby I am when it comes to pain in my stomach.
This last week I had a small serving of Tuna Casserole and it sat surprisingly well in my tummy. As most of you know I have had a phobia of pasta, because of all those horror stories I have heard!
My main diet includes many of the folllowing:
Hard Boiled Eggs
Egg Beaters
Cheese
Spaghetti Squash (YUM-O)
Butter Squash
Beef Jerky
Protein Shakes
Pork
Chicken
Tuna (out of the can)
Broccoli

I have learned how to cook for my family very healthy. I have made some of our old favorites in more healthy ways. Spaghetti Squash instead of Pasta with the Meat sauce. It really is surprisingly good. I read all labels now. Guess what I found? Wal-Mart has a drink mix kinda like the Crystal Lights and they have Sugar Free Apple Juice! Guess what my kids drink now? Yup no more Apple Juice with 30+ grams of sugar in 6oz. It is all about healthier choices and portion control. I have found splenda makes baking sugars and brown sugar as well. There will no longer be tons of sugar in our homemade cookies, cakes and candies. My marinades have also substituted the suagrs with splenda, and you can not tell the difference.

I can handle most things surprisingly well. I have only had one issue with terrible pain and nauseau. This was the day before our move and I had a breadstick for dinner. I think I ate it either too fast or too much because I was so sick. I have found that I cant throw up. I was so nauseaus that night, sitting over the toilet trying to throw up thinking it would make me feel better but no, I could not get it to come up. The nice thing is it only lasts 30 minutes. I layed there on the floor for those thirty minutes agonzing. But once it was over it was over.
I dont regret the decision I made. The only thing I regret is not doing it a couple years ago when I first went in for the consult.

Living up here we dont have any fast food restraunts. We dont have those temptations, but there are others. I have cooked for my children every single night. I am loving my new life and the new outlook I have on life. I will not take my second chance at life for granted!!!