So many things going on in my life right now. First is that I got a job and will be moving in February. I think it is finally kinda hitting me that these are my last few months here in my home town. I have been thinking tonight about how sad that makes me. But it also makes me very happy that I am able to start over in a new town, with new friends (of course I will always love my old friends) and new opportunities. I am sad thinking how much I am going to miss my nieces. Also sad because I just reconnected with my sister Brittany and I dont want to lose that again! I want to be a part of all my nieces lives! All four of them, Courtney, Caitlyn, Taylor and Jaqueline!
BUt I am doing this for me and my family. This is something that I need. I need to move away and I need to do this on my own. I need to know that I am not weak. With God all things are possible and he will give me the strength I need to survive with my children!
Bobby and I are divorcing. I have finished my paperwork and will be filing my papers on Monday morning. I just know that I cant live the rest of my life with him. I cant live not knowing how he is going to react from moment to moment. I seriously think he has Bipolar Disorder, but he refuses to go and talk with someone for it and get treated. He has all the classic symptoms. I cant live like this. I cant be the one who is holding our family together anymore. I need someone strong enough to hold me together. I know I am not perfect but I doknow that I deserve a man who is going to respect me and love me for who I am and what I bring to a relationship. Someone who is not going to try and change me into a person they think I should be. SOmeone who's family will love and accept me and if not they wont be afraid to stand up for me. I deserve someone to love me all the time not only when they feel I deserve to be loved. Bobby doesnt have this unconditional love for me. It hurts my heart to admit this. I know the best thing for me is to walk away from him. Cut my losses and move on. There is many other men out there and I am sure I will find my soul mate.
My family and friends are being so super supportive of me right now. It really has amazed me at how supportive people are being. My mom especially! She is not the most encouraging person in my life but I can see she is really trying! I so appreciate that from her!
I love all my friends and family and want to send a HUGE BEAR HUG and a GINORMOUS THAK YOU!!!!!!
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God works in unconventional ways. He has a way of restoring things in His time. Lisa, it's so awesome that you look to God for guidance and comfort. He never disappoints us. Thanks for allowing God to use your life and relying on Him. God is so faithful to supply what we don't have on our own. You are loved by others, but most importantly, by the one who created you. Thanks for returning that love to others.
"Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into his grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope." Romans 5: 1-4
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