ER Visit

I know my last few posts have had nothing to do with my weight loss but I guess I am needing to vent somewhere and here is the place.
Last night Bobby and I were headed out to dinner. We got about a block from home and started to feel really bad. I started to blackout, I got really really hot, sweatty, naseaus, hyperventilating, weak, evrything started swimming together and I couldnt think straight. So Bobby brings me home and gives me a Hersheys Kiss thinking maybe my blood sugar was low. We tested my sugar and it was normal but I was getting worse so I just said take me tot he hospital NOW! So off we went. We got there and my BP was super low, 74/37. They took tons of blood, gave me two bags of fluids and determined I was very dehydrated and have a very bad UTI, they also said my kidneys have damage to them. So I was sent home with strict bed rest orders and some antibiotics. Yay more meds! Anyway I feel really really rotten.

Back from the doctor

OK so again I went to the doctor this morning, this makes time #4 this week alone. I got "the call" yesterday as I wrote in my blog last night. So Iwent and talked to my doctor this morning and she was amazed at the numbers UC Davis is saying My Cholesterol and Triglycerides were at. Especially since my tests on June 26 were all really normal.
So she ordered some blood work, ouchie, and a urinalysis. She prescribed me a medication for my triglycerides in particular. She told me not to stress out too much. She also said she wanted me to be taking an asprin every day! Then she dropped the bomb on me, this is her last month at the clinic! I was so upset , again I started to cry. God I would think I was pregnant as much as I have been crying today!
I am so emotional today I have ben crying on and off all day. Anything and everything is making me cry.
So I called UC Davis and left a message for the surgical coordinator to call me back. Hopefully they will schedule me since now I have officially jumped through every one of their hoops!

Surgery Update

So they called today and geve me some rotten news! My Triglycerides and Cholesterol is really high. SO I have another appointment tomorrow with my primary care, hah they have seen me almost as much as my husband has this week. So once I get on something to lower them they will schedule me. She said I am at really high risk right now of having a heart attack or stroke, NICE!! As if I wasnt stressed enough! I am so upset right now. I want them to retest me because the levels she was saying is grossly high. So now I have ANOTHER med to add to the list of meds I am currently on.

My med list is:
Atenolol---Blood Pressure
Lisinopril---Blood Pressure and Kidneys
Metphormin---Diabetes
Hydrochlorithiazide---Blood Pressure water pill
Aciphex---Acid Reflux
Prozac----Depression
Naproxen----Knee Pain and Endometriosis
Vicodin----Occasionally at night for knee pain
Zovia----Birth Control
Vitamin B----Stress (physician ordered)
Calcium Supplement
Multivitamin

Anyway I have decided to go on a strict vegetarian diet, no meat product, since animal products are what carry the cholesterol. I need to get this down FAST!!! I was told its best to cut the meat out a couple weeks before surgery anyway to help with not being so sick when you do the two day cleanse.

Small setback, Nothing major!!

Ok so I think I am feeling a little better about my surgery today. I had gotten a phone call on monday saying that my insurance was not going to authorize surgery unless I could prove a 6 month weight managment program. UGH! We had already been over tis before an I thought it was figured out. So I called Aetna and left messages finally someone called me back today. She said that once they get the results frommy psych eval that everything should be fine and she did not know why the other nurse said what she did. So after three days of stressing I think I can calm down a bit. I have two appointments next week and then they can send my paperwork off to the authorizing man and then I can be scheduled! I am looking at either the end of the week of the 17th or right around christmas!! What an awsome christmas gift to myself! At least I am thinking so. So now hopefully I will be able to sleep a little better.

Date has been confirmed!

So my surgery date has been confirmed! December 17th I will go in for my surgery! Of course Brieanna definately wants to be at the hospital. I am not sure if Bobby is going to come or not. He says he is not sure if he can take off from work, ok whatever it just an excuse if you ask me but ok I will go with it!
I am getting nervous. I have lost three pounds already in the past two days! I know this is the best choice for me and my family. I cant wait for it to be done and over so I can heal and get back to a normal life.
We are going to have a Thanksgiving/Christmas dinner here at the house this next week because I want Turkey before surgery. Since I am going to be completely limited on what I can eat for the next few months I want to eat my favorite foods (of course in moderation) before surgery.
I have started drinkng protein shakes every morning for breakfast, ewwwww yuck! I want to get adjusted to them now, find one I like and can handle so that once I have surgery I will be on track! Protein is major in a healthy recovery. 80-100 grams of protein a day is what I will be required to get. In the begining it will be hard to get that much because I will be so limited on the amount I can drink so this is where the high protein shakes come in. Lack of protein and I will start to lose my hair!!! Cant let that happen!
Anyway I just wanted to update and let everyone know whats happening!

Not about weight Just life

So many things going on in my life right now. First is that I got a job and will be moving in February. I think it is finally kinda hitting me that these are my last few months here in my home town. I have been thinking tonight about how sad that makes me. But it also makes me very happy that I am able to start over in a new town, with new friends (of course I will always love my old friends) and new opportunities. I am sad thinking how much I am going to miss my nieces. Also sad because I just reconnected with my sister Brittany and I dont want to lose that again! I want to be a part of all my nieces lives! All four of them, Courtney, Caitlyn, Taylor and Jaqueline!
BUt I am doing this for me and my family. This is something that I need. I need to move away and I need to do this on my own. I need to know that I am not weak. With God all things are possible and he will give me the strength I need to survive with my children!

Bobby and I are divorcing. I have finished my paperwork and will be filing my papers on Monday morning. I just know that I cant live the rest of my life with him. I cant live not knowing how he is going to react from moment to moment. I seriously think he has Bipolar Disorder, but he refuses to go and talk with someone for it and get treated. He has all the classic symptoms. I cant live like this. I cant be the one who is holding our family together anymore. I need someone strong enough to hold me together. I know I am not perfect but I doknow that I deserve a man who is going to respect me and love me for who I am and what I bring to a relationship. Someone who is not going to try and change me into a person they think I should be. SOmeone who's family will love and accept me and if not they wont be afraid to stand up for me. I deserve someone to love me all the time not only when they feel I deserve to be loved. Bobby doesnt have this unconditional love for me. It hurts my heart to admit this. I know the best thing for me is to walk away from him. Cut my losses and move on. There is many other men out there and I am sure I will find my soul mate.
My family and friends are being so super supportive of me right now. It really has amazed me at how supportive people are being. My mom especially! She is not the most encouraging person in my life but I can see she is really trying! I so appreciate that from her!
I love all my friends and family and want to send a HUGE BEAR HUG and a GINORMOUS THAK YOU!!!!!!

The final eval

Well Wednesday is my final eval for surgery. I got the results from the Colpo on Thursday and everything is good, normal. So just follow up with a routine pap in 6 months. So were looking at 3 weeks after my eval for surgery! I am excited, nervous and scared all mixed into one big bottle of emotion. I am excited that Im finally taking this step to become healthy. Im nervous because it is a huge step. Im scared because there is that small chance that I could die. Yes I am saying it, confronting that fear. I know its not going to happen, I know that! I have complete faith in God and my doctor! Im ready, ready for a change! Tired of being fat and unhealthy.

It all started...

It all started in August 2006. I hadn't been feeling well for a very long time. I went to the doctor because I thought I had a bladder infection. My back ached and I had been peeing non-stop! I would go and as soon as I would stand up I had to go again! So I went, peed in a cup and was told nope there was no infection. What the? But they were going to do some more tests. I was called 24 hours later, I need you to come in and discuss lab results immediately! I was so scared. I went in the next morning, I was diagnosed with type 2 adult onset diabetes. I cried, I felt like my life was over, I would never enjoy brownies, german chocolate cake or lasagna again!! So I decided to lose some weight and get this under control. I lost some weight, gained it and then some back. My blood pressure began to go up again. I was put on a third BP pill along with a water pill. In May 2007 I talked with my doctor about weight loss surgery. He immediately gave me a referal to UCSF. Well I decided to do my own research and pick where I wanted to go, not allow them to make me go somewhere I was not comfortable. So I began looking, talking to doctors and asking LOTS of questions. Everyone who said I know someone who had done that I spoke to. I heard horror stories as well as many dream stories. So I decided to go with Dr. Fuller and Dr. Ali at UC Davis Medical Center in Sacramento. The hospital is about 45 minutes from my home. The two doctors have done over 500 surgeries in the last 5 years with no surgical related deaths! WoW, thats awsome! more later, I am kinda tired of typing for now (o: