Wow It Sure Has Been Awhile!!!!

I cant believe the last time i updated my blod was on July 6th! Man that seems like ages ago, so much has happend since then! Im just going to start flowing and ya'll can read or just skim through!
So the weekend after the 4th of July I went to Fairfield to meet up with some friends for lunch. I missed them all so much that I had to go back and see them, even though I was piss ass tired the following day, lol! Most of yoou know I had agreed to give it one more go with Bobby and I. Which only proved me to be the fool once again.
He had stayed the weekend of 4th of July with me and things seemed great until he got this phone call from, well I am going to call her "B" since I cnt call her anything else nice. Well he had been seeing her back when I moved, which is ok. But when we decided to try to work things out I figured he would break it off with her. Well I was wrong. She called and he got all giddy like a HS teenager talking to their new love. Ok I dismissed it as I was being weird.
Then I came down and we had agreed to have dinner as a family together that Monday. Well he was texting her through our entire meal. I was pissed and hurt all at the same time. I really dont know what he was expecting from me but I think he got alot more then he was wanting. I decided at that point I am not going to be anyones second choice. I deserve to be someones everything and obviously he isnt going to make me that, so its over. The divorce is still going forward and I will never turn down that road again. That chapter in my book of life is over. We will be friends, but never anything more then that. I have hired someone to finish everything for me so I dont have to deal with the bs of it all anymore.
I have been having a few issues with my stomach lately. It seems upset alot of the time. I have been really watching wht I am eating, but it seems like anything and everything I am eating right now is making me sick.
I have been eating a ton (well not a ton because I cant eat that much, lol) of salads, chicken, cheese and beef jerky. Drinking lots of water and Ice tea. Still not drinking any soda or juices. Have not added any kind of sugar back into my diet either. Dont eat the bread or rice and really limit my pasta to about once or twice a month, if that.
I am down to 143lbs! I wear a size 10. I feel amazing, I have so much energy and can do things I never ever thought I would do again. I have a major self confidence/esteem issue. Although in my clothes I know I have lost all this weight, When I look in the mirror I still see the 242lb girl in front of me! I am hoping this is just a phase I am going through because man I dont want to go through the rest of my life with these issues. I tell my girls they are gorgeous exactly how they are, not to worry about what others think of them and their bodies, but here I am stressing about how I look and how fat I look and how much and what I eat. My little ones are still very impressionable and I dont want to pass this off on to them. I want my kids to be comfortable in their bodies, as long as they are healthy and not over weight they are perfect!
Anyway, thats my life and weight update for now. I promise to try and notg o a month without updating again!
XoXoXo to all who read this!!!!!

Well I Did IT!!!!

Things have been crazy around here this past week and a half. The hotel has been off the hook crazy (rude weird guests and being busy every single night). Life seems to happen in the weirdest ways. Things happen that ya never knew were possible. People surprise you and do things you never thought was possible!
On Friday my GF Erin and I did a marathon, my first ever. We both completed it in record time for the both of us. She even placed third! Congrats Erin! I didnt place BUT I finished and most definately NOT last! 40 minutes 11 seconds, it was hard and tiresome and amazing all at the same time!
We had a busy 4th of July. Bobby and his mom came and brought my girls back. They had been gone for two weeks. We had a wonderful couple of days together. Bobby was so supportive and told me how proud he was of all that I have become. He was waiting at the finish line with the girls Friday morning encouraging me!
We BBQ'ed and hung out and just enjoyed being a family. My GF Erin came over with her kids and we hung out, went to see the fireworks together, came home and did our own fireworks (which were much better than the ones the city did), and had a blast just relaxing and being together.
Brieanna got the flu on Friday so she was unable to do much of anything. She just layed around most of the day, until we went to watch the fireworks. She was much better yesterday.
Not much of a weight update except that I have reached the 85lb mark since surgery (92lb mark since this whole thing began). That is an amazing feeling for me! I feel so awsome!

Thank you to all my friends who faithfully read this! I love you all! XoXoXo