Finally an AFTER!!!

Finally, today I am an after!

I had my surgery on Tuesday February 12th at 8:30am. I was so scared. I had a great friend whom I spoke with on the phone just minutes before they wheeled me back and she helped to settle my nerves.

They wheeled me into this room where there was so much commotion going on it was hard to think, maybe they do this on purpose, but there was like 6 or 8 beds all surounded by anesthisiologists(sp) I had 3 of my very own! I started to cry, I was so nervous and so excited, this is what I had been waiting all these months for and it was finally here! So they wheeled me into the OR. I had an awsome anestesia(again sp) guy, he was so calm and made me feel very comfortable. The last couple things I remember is 1. Thinking man this does NOT look like Grey's Anatomy al ALL! and 2. These men have such nice facial hair.........
I woke up at 3:30pm in recovery with my husband by my side. He was truly happy to see that I was, well Alive! My girls Brieanna and Brittany came in next and sat with me for a few minutes. Then I was out again. I woke at 10:30pm being transported to my room.
I have given birth MANY times, this pain is WORSE, magnified 100 times to childbirth. I would have popped another baby out with much less pain than this was. But it was worth every minute of the pain I have suffered!
Bobby has made a wonderful caretaker this past week. The girls have been sooo helpful with each other and with keeping the house picked up.
I had my staples removed yesterday and that in itself is a whole other blog, which I will write later. For now I am going to go and enjoy a nice cold glass of Crystal Light, mmmmm

The Night Before

So tonight is the night before surgery. I am nervous, scared, excited all mixed into one! Tonight has been killer on my body as well.

I started the bowel cleanse at 2pm. By 6pm I seriously thought I was going to die. I did not realise a person could go #2 that much and that liquidy for that long of a time and still survive! I did throw up once. Brieanna was so awsome she sat right by my side through it all. I was laying on the bathroom floor, naked, felling like I was going to die, wanting, for a brief moment, to die. But it did pass and I am better now. I did for about 5 minutes question the decision I have made.

Tomorrow is a new day, tomorrow is a new begining for me.

OMG FINALLY!!!!

Okay! Finally! I cant wait!! I am so excited!!! Yet then again so nervous too!!! Know what I am so excited about? My insurance company approved my appeal and I am scheduled to have my surgery on Tuesday, February 12th!!! It has been 8 months since I began the process. Never in my wildest dreams did I think, in the begining that is, that this journey would be quite this long. It has been an exciting journey full of ups and downs.

Today we are throwing my mom a surprise 50th birthday party. I will enjoy my final meal this evening with my family. I enjoyed a night out with the girls last night, yeah I enjoyed myself a little too much, LOL. Tomorrow morning I will begin my liquid diet consisting of all clear liquids. Then Monday morning I pre-op and start my bowel prep/cleanse. Then Tuesday morning I will have my surgery. I have been told there is a 1-2 night hospital stay and those are the worst days.

I know I wont regret this decision. I am ready to get myself healthy. I want to live so I can see my children grow and graduate from high school get married and have children of their own.

I will be sure to post when I get home from the hospital. Wish me luck and keep me in your prayers!

There are no words to express my gratitude to those of you who have supported me through this. Thank you so so much!!!