Date has been confirmed!

So my surgery date has been confirmed! December 17th I will go in for my surgery! Of course Brieanna definately wants to be at the hospital. I am not sure if Bobby is going to come or not. He says he is not sure if he can take off from work, ok whatever it just an excuse if you ask me but ok I will go with it!
I am getting nervous. I have lost three pounds already in the past two days! I know this is the best choice for me and my family. I cant wait for it to be done and over so I can heal and get back to a normal life.
We are going to have a Thanksgiving/Christmas dinner here at the house this next week because I want Turkey before surgery. Since I am going to be completely limited on what I can eat for the next few months I want to eat my favorite foods (of course in moderation) before surgery.
I have started drinkng protein shakes every morning for breakfast, ewwwww yuck! I want to get adjusted to them now, find one I like and can handle so that once I have surgery I will be on track! Protein is major in a healthy recovery. 80-100 grams of protein a day is what I will be required to get. In the begining it will be hard to get that much because I will be so limited on the amount I can drink so this is where the high protein shakes come in. Lack of protein and I will start to lose my hair!!! Cant let that happen!
Anyway I just wanted to update and let everyone know whats happening!

Not about weight Just life

So many things going on in my life right now. First is that I got a job and will be moving in February. I think it is finally kinda hitting me that these are my last few months here in my home town. I have been thinking tonight about how sad that makes me. But it also makes me very happy that I am able to start over in a new town, with new friends (of course I will always love my old friends) and new opportunities. I am sad thinking how much I am going to miss my nieces. Also sad because I just reconnected with my sister Brittany and I dont want to lose that again! I want to be a part of all my nieces lives! All four of them, Courtney, Caitlyn, Taylor and Jaqueline!
BUt I am doing this for me and my family. This is something that I need. I need to move away and I need to do this on my own. I need to know that I am not weak. With God all things are possible and he will give me the strength I need to survive with my children!

Bobby and I are divorcing. I have finished my paperwork and will be filing my papers on Monday morning. I just know that I cant live the rest of my life with him. I cant live not knowing how he is going to react from moment to moment. I seriously think he has Bipolar Disorder, but he refuses to go and talk with someone for it and get treated. He has all the classic symptoms. I cant live like this. I cant be the one who is holding our family together anymore. I need someone strong enough to hold me together. I know I am not perfect but I doknow that I deserve a man who is going to respect me and love me for who I am and what I bring to a relationship. Someone who is not going to try and change me into a person they think I should be. SOmeone who's family will love and accept me and if not they wont be afraid to stand up for me. I deserve someone to love me all the time not only when they feel I deserve to be loved. Bobby doesnt have this unconditional love for me. It hurts my heart to admit this. I know the best thing for me is to walk away from him. Cut my losses and move on. There is many other men out there and I am sure I will find my soul mate.
My family and friends are being so super supportive of me right now. It really has amazed me at how supportive people are being. My mom especially! She is not the most encouraging person in my life but I can see she is really trying! I so appreciate that from her!
I love all my friends and family and want to send a HUGE BEAR HUG and a GINORMOUS THAK YOU!!!!!!