April Fools Day

Well today is the first day of April, 28 days until my first born daughter is 18! It hardly feels like it has been 18 years, I still see her as the little brown eyed girl toddling around the house falling down and asking me to kiss her knees. Kids grow way too fast, its so sad to think that you can never get the time back, you can never change words that were said, actions that were done. You only get one chance. Love them when they are little and they will love you when your old!

Another Season...

Spring is finally here! It is so gorgeous outside. The snow is melting, the deer are coming down, the birds are singing, this is a really amazing time of year!
The hotel and B&B will be opening in 17 days. Seems like my time off just flew by! Another season in the hotel industry...Possibly my last. Who knows where exactly life will take me in the next year or so. I will enjoy the time I have left up here in the Eastern Sierras.
I am truly enjoying my life. My children. My friends. My family. My job. I am blessed to truly have such a wonderful existence!

Came & Went

WoW! One year came and went! It was here and then it was gone as quickly as it came! I have hit my goal weight. I weigh 125lbs and wear a size 4. I am healthy and happy and active and enjoying every aspect of my life! My life has finally begun! I have recently gone through some very personal struggles that I'm not sure how I would have handled them without the strength I have gained over the past year.

I am truly enjoying all that life has to offer me at this point in my life. I have made some awsome new friends. I have lost some old friends, who looking back were never really friends at all, but mere people passing through my life. People who made me stronger and more self reliant than I have ever been before.

Over the past couple months I have really struggled with being very discontent with where I am in my life. I moved to a city, where a person whom I thought was my best friend lived. But it turns out she too was one of those people who spent the last 8 years "just passing through" my life. I dislike where I live so much that coming back here seems to make me physically feel ill. I know its all in my head, but i seriously can not wait to move out of this place.

Here is something that this disasterous move has taught me...How to be self reliant! I found Lisa. I realised that I can survive on my own without a man to care for me and my children! I have self confidence, self esteem & I know that regardless of if I have a man in my life or not I will survive! I dont think I would have learned all this about myself had I not made this move. For the very first time in my entire life I am Happy!

I thik I will always struggle with self image issues. I believe every woman has things about herself that she dislikes, of course some more then others. I can relate to a woman who has been heavy and to a woman who has been thin. I can relate to women who are heavy now after years of being thin and vice versa. I see woman who are heavy and grossly obese and I feel sorry for them. I have this place in my heart that aches for them because I know the misery and the peronal hell they are living with. I wish every woman had the same opportunity that I had. I know they dont but I do believe everyone deserves this chance in life!

Almost ONE Year!!!

So I'm sitting here thinking back on all the changes in this past year. Amazing that a person, a grown adult, can change so much in a matter of just one full year!

February 11, 2008:
Woke up around 6am. Took my daily pills (a ton let me remind you) and got dressed. Headed out the door for my last pre-op appointment at UC Davis in Sacramento.
Arrived at UC Davis around 8:45am and Brie and I ran to the office since my appointment was at 9am.
Sat around the waiting room for what seemed like forever. Then we headed back...
Final Weight: 226lbs
BP: 156/90
Took my final before picture.
Had a TON of blood work taken.
Registered in the hospital.
Enjoyed the last Regular Mountain Dew I would ever have (in this lifetime)
Headed home to start my bowel cleanse...
Arrived home around 2pm.
Took one bottle of the sodium nitrate mixed with above mentioned Mt Dew
Choked it down.
Not bad I can handle this...
3pm realised Hailey drank my Mt Dew and I had to mix the SN with Gatorade
Choked it down.
God why do they say this is so bad???
4pm...nothing
5pm...nothing
6pm...Hmm yeah still nothing
7pm...Wow I dont feel too hot
8pm...OH GOD MOVE OUTTA MY WAY
9pm...I just wanna lay here
10pm...I think Im dying...No seriously dying
10:15pm...BRIEANNA...
10:30pm...Oh God call Erin something is wrong
10:45pm...Call 911 Brie I am dying, Im dying, Im dying....
11pm...God how can there still be so much in there I havent eaten in 2 days...
11:15om...Bobby arrives home from God knows where...WTH is wrong with your Mom...
11:30pm...having some serious second thoughts...
12am...finally doze off
3:30am...Bobby wakes up and says guess your chickening out?
3:31am I get up and say SCREW YOU BOBBY!!
3:35am...back on the toilet
4am... on the way to the hospital
5am... scared shitless, in the hospital room all alone
5:30am...Lab work
6am...Laying there waiting
6:15am...My dear friend Jill calls to comfort me... Thank you Jill!
6:30am...Taken upstairs to prep for surgery
7am...I see my surgeon who tells me it will all be done in just a little while
3pm...Vaguely remember Bobby and the kids coming to see me
2am...transferred from recovery to my room

The real fun began now...

You've Come A Long Way Baby!!

I can hardly believe its almost February! Seems like this year is just totally flying by. Next thing ya know it will be June, then October and before ya know it New Years again! Life has a way of doing this to us and if were not careful it will pass us by! I know this all too well. I sat on my ass for 10 years, allowed myself to become depressed, withdrawn, unhappy and I blamed everyone around me for the misery I was in, when in reality the only person I had to blame was myself. I think this last year, 2008, was the most eye opening year of my entire life. I think I went from up to down to back up and back down and finally up again. I was on a roller coaster of emotions for most of the year.
New Years 2008 started off good. Grandma was healing, in the hospital but she was getting better. We celebrated her 70th birthday with a surprise party. Then she suddenly took a turn for the worse and ended up back in the hospital. But we all thought she was still ok. On February 12 I had weightloss surgery. A decision I will never regret. But 4 days later, on February 16, my grandma passed away. We were all stunned and heart broken. Then on March 18 my other grandma passed away. Her illness was very sudden and she was only sick for about 2 months before she passed away. Two days later I made the life altering move that changed my life forever. I packed up my children and my few belongings and left the man who I had become so miserable with over the past ten years.
It took time but I think my heart is finally starting to heal from the loss and heatbreak I suffered in 2008. I met a wonderful man who has helped. I am going to school, something that I never thought I would ever be able to do. I am happy with my life and my children. For the first time ever I can say without a doubt my life is good, I am happy and I wouldnt change a thing.
I have good days and bad. I think it will be a way of life for me possibly forever. On the bad days I think of how blessed, truly blessed I am to have had the opportunity to change my life. I remember back to my life before the surgery and I was miserable and unhappy every single day. Those days are so few and far between now that I honestly can probably count them on one hand!
Exercise and healthy eating should be part of everyones everyday life. Not only is it great for our body, but it is also great for our mind and emotional health as well. Nothing can quite clear your head as good as a nice long walk in the cool night air.
No matter what happens in life I know that I am prepared mentally, emotionally and physically to take on just about any challenge life will throw me!!

Some More Pics

This is me in February of 2008, right before my surgery, 245lbs

Ok and this is me in November,130lbs. The middle one is my size 5 butt, LOL. Yes Brie thought it would be funny to take a picture of my no-butt, lol

Some Pics

Tom & I

Just Me

Brieanna & I

11 months today!

Well its been 11 months since the day that forever changed my life! I am so grateful to have been able to have had this opportunity. Everything about my life has changed. My outlook, the way I live, the way I look at food, the way I handle my issues, when I say everything I truly mean everything about my life is completely different.

When I started this journey I did not realise that not only would my body be transformed but also everything about me as well. I have become a completely different woman in the past 11 months. I think there have been both good changes along with bad changes, but for the most part I am happy with the woman that I have become.

I have lost 118lbs from my highest weight. That means I am almost half the size that I was this time last year. I still have trouble eating bread, pasta and rice, although I truly think this is mental. I allow myself tiny portions every now and then and when I do it does not bother me too badly. I still watch my sugar intake, only allowing myself the recomended amount of sugar. Although I am quickly approaching the one year mark and should be able to tolerate the sugar more and more, I just have not added it back into my diet.

So many changes in my life. So many things that have happened in the last few months. I dont even really know where to begin. A few things I will share with you, some good some bad.

We'll start with the not bad, but kinda OCD thing I deal with on a daily basis. So I now weigh 127lbs. I fluctuate from 127-130 on a daily basis. I know this because I weigh myself twice a day. Once when I wake up, it the first thing I do every morning. I strip down to nithing and step on the scale. Before bed I strip down to nothing and step on the scale. My scale tracks my weights and so I keep a very close track of what I weigh, every day. I know this sound compulsive, kinda strange, but I am scared to death of gaining weight back. Now I know in my head I am not fat, but I have a hard time convincing myself of it. I have this super cute pair of size 5 jeans. I look at them every time I put them on and say to myself "God those are small, no way your going to fit your fat ass into them" when I get them on I am truly amazed, every time. My daughter gave me this pair of size 2 jeans, jeans that are too big for her, I can get them up, not buttoned (yet), but I can get them up. I have not even been able to look at a size two since jr high school.

Next is my self confidence level has risen to new heights. I dont even think in high school I had the self confidence that I have now. I meet new people and I enjoy it. I dont feel like I have to sell myself so much anymore. I am who I am, I am Lisa Johnson (soon to be Richardson again), like me for me and if you dont well Im sorry there is nothing that I am going to try to do about that. I met someone a few months ago who is incredible. I am truly amazed that there really are men out there who treat women the way this man treats me. He is kind, gentle, caring, sweet, loving and I guess the only downfall is that he doesnt ride a white horse and his name is not prince charming, lol. He truly is a wonderful man whom I have fallen head over heels in love with over the past almost 5 months. My kids love him and also love the way he treats me. I couldnt ask for more, honestly.

Along with this new self confidence I have found the confidence to go back to school. Something in which Tom has encouraged in me. In August I will be applying to the nursing program at our local college. I have 4 classes to finish up this semester and hopefully will be accepted into the program to begin Jan 2010. Yes I am super excited, this has been a dream of mine for a long time.

I am still working at the hotel. I love my job and the people I work for are amazing. I dont think I could have asked for a better family to work for. They have become like my family.

Moving to Bridgeport, Ca has been the most exciting adventure of my life. It has definately had its ups and downs but for the most part I love it here and do not regret my decision to move here. I do know that I will not spend the rest of my life in this small town. This city girl misses things like Macy's, Vistoria's Secret, Target and Raley's!! I miss people and the anonymity of living in the big city. I no longer wish to be where everybody knows my name...

some pictures...

Our first snow storm after the summer. The top one is our courthouse, the second one is my front yard. Boy was it cold. We woke up and it was 9* at 8am when I opened the office. It was gorgeous. The kids enjoyed the snow.

Our new puppy Cabella loves the snow. She is a 4 1/2 month old Shepherd Border Collie mix. We love her to pieces!!

Just a random happy picture of me!!

Its been awhile!

It sure has been awhile since I updated my blog here! The girls and I are doing great. The hotel is about to close for the season. I cant believe how fast the time flew by. We moved here 7 months ago. it was cold and rainy, Winter was just leaving and Spring was arriving. The girls have all gotten so big and are doing so well in school. I truly have been blessed with amazing children. They each have their own special qualities and can bring a smile to my face in the worst of situations.
I am doing really well with my weightloss. I have lost 105lbs and seem to be plateaued here. I am down to a loose fitting size 8! That is amazing to me. I sit in my room in the mornings and hold up these size 8 jeans and can not believe that I can fit into them! I went from a 22 to a 8 in 8 months! I am so happy!
I told my girlfriend this morning that I know I'm not fat because I wear an 8! But I still see myself as fat. i think tht will always be an issue with me. The way we percieve ourselves is always completely different then how others see us.
The leaves are changing colors and falling from the tree's. It is an absolutely beautiful sight. Our streets were lined with leaves for about a week, it was amazing. I have never ever seen such a thing, of course in movies ,but to actually live somewhere and expirience the four season is another thing completely!
I started dating this summer. Met some real losers, met some nice guys and found an amazing guy who I have been dating for almost 2 months now.
If anyone had told me a year ago that my life would be this awsome today I woulda called em a liar! I was miserable, fat and unhealthy! Today I am happy, healthy and thin!

Wow It Sure Has Been Awhile!!!!

I cant believe the last time i updated my blod was on July 6th! Man that seems like ages ago, so much has happend since then! Im just going to start flowing and ya'll can read or just skim through!
So the weekend after the 4th of July I went to Fairfield to meet up with some friends for lunch. I missed them all so much that I had to go back and see them, even though I was piss ass tired the following day, lol! Most of yoou know I had agreed to give it one more go with Bobby and I. Which only proved me to be the fool once again.
He had stayed the weekend of 4th of July with me and things seemed great until he got this phone call from, well I am going to call her "B" since I cnt call her anything else nice. Well he had been seeing her back when I moved, which is ok. But when we decided to try to work things out I figured he would break it off with her. Well I was wrong. She called and he got all giddy like a HS teenager talking to their new love. Ok I dismissed it as I was being weird.
Then I came down and we had agreed to have dinner as a family together that Monday. Well he was texting her through our entire meal. I was pissed and hurt all at the same time. I really dont know what he was expecting from me but I think he got alot more then he was wanting. I decided at that point I am not going to be anyones second choice. I deserve to be someones everything and obviously he isnt going to make me that, so its over. The divorce is still going forward and I will never turn down that road again. That chapter in my book of life is over. We will be friends, but never anything more then that. I have hired someone to finish everything for me so I dont have to deal with the bs of it all anymore.
I have been having a few issues with my stomach lately. It seems upset alot of the time. I have been really watching wht I am eating, but it seems like anything and everything I am eating right now is making me sick.
I have been eating a ton (well not a ton because I cant eat that much, lol) of salads, chicken, cheese and beef jerky. Drinking lots of water and Ice tea. Still not drinking any soda or juices. Have not added any kind of sugar back into my diet either. Dont eat the bread or rice and really limit my pasta to about once or twice a month, if that.
I am down to 143lbs! I wear a size 10. I feel amazing, I have so much energy and can do things I never ever thought I would do again. I have a major self confidence/esteem issue. Although in my clothes I know I have lost all this weight, When I look in the mirror I still see the 242lb girl in front of me! I am hoping this is just a phase I am going through because man I dont want to go through the rest of my life with these issues. I tell my girls they are gorgeous exactly how they are, not to worry about what others think of them and their bodies, but here I am stressing about how I look and how fat I look and how much and what I eat. My little ones are still very impressionable and I dont want to pass this off on to them. I want my kids to be comfortable in their bodies, as long as they are healthy and not over weight they are perfect!
Anyway, thats my life and weight update for now. I promise to try and notg o a month without updating again!
XoXoXo to all who read this!!!!!

Well I Did IT!!!!

Things have been crazy around here this past week and a half. The hotel has been off the hook crazy (rude weird guests and being busy every single night). Life seems to happen in the weirdest ways. Things happen that ya never knew were possible. People surprise you and do things you never thought was possible!
On Friday my GF Erin and I did a marathon, my first ever. We both completed it in record time for the both of us. She even placed third! Congrats Erin! I didnt place BUT I finished and most definately NOT last! 40 minutes 11 seconds, it was hard and tiresome and amazing all at the same time!
We had a busy 4th of July. Bobby and his mom came and brought my girls back. They had been gone for two weeks. We had a wonderful couple of days together. Bobby was so supportive and told me how proud he was of all that I have become. He was waiting at the finish line with the girls Friday morning encouraging me!
We BBQ'ed and hung out and just enjoyed being a family. My GF Erin came over with her kids and we hung out, went to see the fireworks together, came home and did our own fireworks (which were much better than the ones the city did), and had a blast just relaxing and being together.
Brieanna got the flu on Friday so she was unable to do much of anything. She just layed around most of the day, until we went to watch the fireworks. She was much better yesterday.
Not much of a weight update except that I have reached the 85lb mark since surgery (92lb mark since this whole thing began). That is an amazing feeling for me! I feel so awsome!

Thank you to all my friends who faithfully read this! I love you all! XoXoXo

More Stuff!

My good friend Amber (pictured above with me) came down for a visit this past Sunday. We had a great time hanging out and visiting the tourist hot spots. It was nice seeing her, we havent seen each other in around 12 years! She brought some pictures of my children when they were itty bitty, and of course some of me also. My how we change through the years!

Weightloss has slowed dramatically, but now the inches are coming off. I guess the inches have to catch up with the weight loss. I am now down to 155lbs and a comfy size 12/14. I have learned that food is my friend, and we are much closer friends when I make better choices.

I am losing my hair, big clumps of hair every morning. It kinda scares me because I dont wanna wake up bald one morning. I have been considering getting a wig just in case. Brieanna told me she would get me a Hannah Montana wig, Uhmmm honey its cute for her, but she is 16 years younger than me! LOL!! Anyhow that is something I have been giving some serious thought to. Hopefully it wont come to that.

My hormones have been all whacky! One minute I am happy toodling along and the next I am bawling my eyes out. I guess with the weightloss my hormones also have to readjust. So until them I am Sybil.....

Next Friday is the 4th of July! Man it has come upon us so darn fast. Erin, Brie and I will be doing a 5 mile marathon at 8am on the 4th. I am super nervous, this is the first marathon I have ever been in. But with exercising and all that I have been doing it shouldnt be too hard on me. Anyhow wish me luck and think of me at 8am next friday!

Another Day

On Monday I started walking 5 miles. 3 in the morninr and 2 in the evening. Kinda tough on the body but Im adjusting. I also bought some weights and have been exercising my arms. Ya wanna talk about sore, wooowee they are sore, LOL.
I have been eating lots of protein. Since my poor hair is falling out I have upped the amount I am eating in a last ditch effort to decrease the amount I will actually lose. Losing hair is scary, when I wash it handfulls come out, I swear one day I will wake up bald!
The girls are going with their Dad this weekend. He is coming up tonight and leaving on Saturday morning. Another eat your heart out cuz this is what your missing visit with him, LOL.
I am nearing my goal of 100lbs. Only 23lbs left until that goal is a reality! I am sure I will have to work harder for these 23 than the first 23! But once I get there it will be bittersweet when I think of everything I have gone through to get where I am.
I am happy. For the first time in my whole adult life I am happy. I dont need a man to complete me, although a man would be nice for other reasons, but not necessary. I love my job AND I am good at it. For the first time in my life I am healthy and active. I love being outside and doing outdoor activities. In fact I am going to learn how to fish!!!

Walking & Weightloss

So I have been doing this crazy walking thing every morning. Pulling my fat butt out of bed at the crack of dawn and walking for 3+ miles. Today I actually feel good. I dont feel sore and tired and super cranky from lack of sleep. In fact we left at 6am but I was awake checking my clock from 5:30 to about 5:45. It gets light so early up here. It starts getting light about 4am. I am so not used to that! My sweet little doggy, Pongo, walks with me. Sometimes I feel bad cuz 3 miles is alot for me, I just wonder what he is thinking sometimes, Geeze mom are ya trying to kill me?? Its been almost two weeks that I have been walking 3 miles in the mornings (every day), I was starting to get very discouraged last night when I stepped on the scale and was still at 160. Then this morning I stepped on it and it said 158, I was so happy! Its paying off, it really is. My legs are getting stronger and I do feel better. The blisters are finally gone, thank god for that! The soreness in my legs is finally gone. I have been stretching every morning before I go and when I get home also. It is so cute, Pongo see's me stretching and he puts his paws up and it so looks like he is stretching too, LOL.

P.S. The pic is of Bridgeport. Yes that is the WHOLE town in the picture!

OK.....

Whoever said that exercise gives you more energy LIED! I have been walking 3 miles (yes I made a mistake on the distance calculation before) every morning and I am getting more and more tired and increasingly sore! My body is screaming at me to stop but my mids is saying, Ok fat ass keep moving or else your goona be fat forever! Yes I admit it that is my motivation. Maybe today is just a bad day and I need to go back to bed. I hurt, i ihave cramps, I am so sleepy I can hardly keep my eyes open and my day doesnt end until ten o'clock tonight.

Ok enough with my whining. I found out today that one of my best friends is pregnant. How exciting is that? Another one of my best friends is starting In-Vitro this summer. And my final best friend is getting married this summer. Exciting things happening. I almost feel like I am missing out on all this stuff going on with my friends and their lives, but I am not willing to sacrifice my happiness just to move back to be there. I would seriously be miserable if I moved back to fairfield. Anyhow those true friends of mine understand and support my decision, even though they miss me.

Thank you to all who read my blog. XoXoXo!

Another Update!

Well this week I hit 160lbs(and its the first day of my cycle)! It feels wonderful to be able to say 160lbs! 25lbs until I hit my goal of 100lbs. It is so close I can almost reach out and touch it, well thats how it feels. Eating is a breeze for me now. I eat almost whatever I want at this point, just no sugar, I dont eat alot of fruit either because it is very high in natural sugars. But veggies are my favorite friends right now! Salads, I eat them almost every day. Beef Jerky and Atkins shakes have also become very close friends of mine. I have started to lose my hair. It is falling out all the time. Just a side effect from the surgery, but mad it sucks! Consuming more protein will help with the loss but nothing will prevent it. Thank the good Lord he gave me a TON of hair.

We have started our 2.5 mile walks in the mornings. We get up at 5:15am, walk 1/4 mile to the airport, walk all the way down the 1 mile runway, walk back up the 1 mile runway and walk the 1/4 mile back home. Let me tell you my legs are sooo sore, my body is so tired and getting up at 5:15 just sucks butt majorly! We can complete the whole walk in 30 minutes, which for someone as out of shape as I am is pretty darn good. The elevation also makes it harder to exercise, the air is so much thinner up here. Our 3 mile marathon is in 3 1/2 weeks so we need to step up the pace and get our butts moving!

The kids are doing so well. The last day of school is on Wednesday and Bobby will be coming up for his girls the following weekend. He misses them and will be taking them for a week or so. I sure am going to miss my baby. But it is not going to be for very long, so I think we will survive.

Brieanna's BFF is coming down tomorrow. She will be spending the week with us. Not much else is new and exciting in my life. Just the same ol same ol going on here. No drama, no stress and life is grand!!

Love and hugs to all who read this! XoXoXoXo

Finally~~~Doing The Happy Dance!!!

Well I have Finally hit the major goal I had been pushing for, 165lbs! Doing the Happy Dance! That means from my highest point I have lost 77lbs! I am super de duper excited. I weighed 165lbs when I met Bobby 10.5 years ago. Also all my 16's are too big I am officially a size 14, yippeee!! I have seriously 6 garbage bags of clothes that I am going to be donating because they are all TOO BIG for me! I can not believe how amazing this feels. **Doin The Happy Dance**

We had an amazing weekend and an even better Memorial Day. A friend of ours, Dave, took us out for a drive around the local countryside yesterday. I can not believe how incredilby beautiful this area is. I knew it was beautiful, dont get me wrong, but this was just amazing. The picture I have posted is of the creek above Leavitt Falls. it is amazingly gorgeous. I cant wait to go back on a clear day and take many more photos.

We bbq'ed yesterday and had some friends come over. It was really nice. Even though our house is small we still fit like 15 people in here last night! We had hot dogs, egg rolls, cheese tots and potatoe wedges. I had an egg roll and a slice of ham. It was just nice to hang out with my friends and just do nothing. We all hung out and then everyone left around 8:30pm. I went upsatirs and finished unpacking my room and cleaned it up. Finally went to bed around 11pm.


Everyone have a wonderful Tuesday. Love to all my friends XoXoXoXo

Heat, Snow & Another Goal Almost Met

The weather has been so incredibly unpredictable this last week. It was in the nineties last weekend and then yesterday we woke up to snow. It really was beautiful to watch, just kinda weird cuz it was so hot just two days before. Here is a picture I took.

I am officially down 68lbs now. It seems since I started drinking the protein shakes every day for breakfat the weight is coming off again. Not bad, not bad at all. Even though I do have to gag down the protein, it tastes horrible.

I found this SmartWater at Trader Joes the other day. It tastes sooo good and does not nauseate me at all. Which is very important since I hate being nauseated, lol.

Anyhow my sister and her kids have come down for a visit. They got here last night around 9:15. It is nice to see them, I havent seen them in the two months since I moved.

Well that is it for this morning. I hope everyone has a wonderful Memorial Day! XOXO

Almost At My Second Goal!!

Today I stepped on the scale and I am 3lbs away from my second goal!! My BMI is under 30, 29.8 to be exact!! I bought some light weights the other day when we were in town and I am starting to do some exercises with them. 3lbs weights are not that easy to work with when your a weakling like me!

Well I satisfied that horrible craving I had been having, KFC. What a friggin mistake that was. I was so sick afterwards, I dont think I will EVER eat KFC again! Ugh so not worht the misery I was in.

When we went into town we ate breakfast at IHOP, one of the girls favorites. The baby slept the whole time we were in there. She is such a good girl, even when we go into town she is so good. She does tend to get a bit fussy in the car on the way home, but after shopping and being in the car for the whole day it is totally expected!

Last night I made a tri tip, mediterranean veggies, ceasar salad and some cheese bread. Everyone loved it. Dave, Thomas and Brent ate over and they enjoyed it very much. For dessert I bought them this Brownie ice cream pizza. They loved it too. It looked really good, but sooo not worth the tummy ache it would give to me. I will stick to my real food.

I have been drinking these Atkins protein shakes. They are quite nasty but are high in protein and only have 1gram of sugar in them and 180 calories. Good for me but not good tasting. I bought some protein bars for when I start exercising really good and more consistantly. I also bought a new protein shake mix from Trader Joes, it is Whey Protein, never tried it but worth a shot.

Anyhow not much else new to report. Everyone have a great day! XoXoXo~~~Lisa